I Wonder How

And Yes, I graduated from HIGHSCHOOL last March 29. How does it feel like to be an officially highschool graduate? I feel pretty badass! 

I can still remember myself back when I was just a freshman. I was a total annoying, emotional, dramatic, and whatever adjectives that is to call a total "INNOCENT GROWING UP GIRL WITH MOOD SWINGS". I was that girl. I always wanted attention. I spend most of the time on the internet.Posting pictures, editing and whatnots. And also because of that I got in trouble. Particularly, blogging. But the incident never stopped me from doing what I like. I learned from it. Sophomore year came, I transferred school. 

It was my most memorable year. I met new people. I become really different. My perspective in life definitely changed. It was the people around me and also the school that helped me change myself. I become more interested in studying and facing the books. I found fascination in numbers and words. I become more timid. From that overconfident kikay girl to a serious timid type of girl. People take me more seriously. 

Junior year.I was the president of our class. We were a united group. There were lesser misunderstanding and more understanding of each other's fault. My relationship with each of my classmates grew and I become more attached to them. But this was actually my lazy year, I can still remember. Bad habits started. Not that I smoke or drink, it's just that I didn't felt like giving my best in studying. My grades were on that consistent track but not on the highest. Nevertheless, I was contended with myself and my achievements. 

It felt just like yesterday when I started Senior Year. And then in popping boom, it suddenly ended.Senior Year is actually the most busy and saddest year. Every activity with your classmates will be emotional. Emotional because it'll be the last. Last year in highschool. Last year with them. /lastlast. Time will fly so fast, you will barely notice it. The best part though, you will learn to let go of things. This year, I got what I actually been aiming to. I passed my entrance exams for college. I received awards in graduation. My family is proud of me. What's not to be glad about? except that for the next school year, I will not be seeing the same people I was used to seeing. 

 Honestly, I was actually glad leaving highschool but not my Alma Mater. Guess that even make sense.

Last thoughts

"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you"

I just want to tell you guys that I'm gonna be active here soon. I'm just letting every projects, last exams and activities finished. I just had my birthday last February 5 and I didn't even bothered to have a proper blog about it. I feel sorry for myself. EH. But to tell you this, I had fun because almost all of my classmates and other friends went to my party. I'm finally sixteen! What a cliche thing to say. I'm also done defending my thesis. It went well, I hoped. Although there was a slight failure on my introduction because the video I prepared didn't played on the school's computer. It wasn't that important but it kind of broke my momentum. More than that, I also had my last prom last Thursday. I prepared our last will and testament plus our prophecy presentation. I feel kind of emotional now about what just happened. I enjoyed the whole night. I was even laughing my ass out to the point that I spit all the pasta I just ate. Best moment ever I can never forget. Aside from me getting wild during the disco dance. 

Meet my awesome/autistic dance partner, so kulit and funny : P

One thing that just ruined my night was my feelings. I guess I wasn't entirely happy on what I said to that person. I felt horrible. Although I settled it and said my true feelings, I just think he doesn't deserve it. But still I did it... and that's up to me to find why I did it. I know, I'm so weird. Until now, I don't know what is wrong with me.  So much for prom.

We will be having our final exam this Friday. This is my last chance to pull my grades up. I haven't been studying this past few days because I always felt sleepy and lazy. I'm taking the blame. It's not because of the computer, my cellphone or anything. It's just me deciding to just sleep instead of studying. I guess I'd just been so stressed lately that even in my sleep, I talk. 

Nevertheless, February is still my favorite and best month. I have discovered a lot of things in myself. There is always time for changing. Make a change, today, tomorrow and the future ♡ xoxo. Have a nice day everyone!

Thank you lord!

Remember my last post about how I don't know where I was going in college? Now, I have an idea. It's still feels too good to be true.

Yesterday was the official release date of USTET results. I can still remember how I slept early before the night without even studying my lessons and doing my assignments. I woke up at around two in the morning without knowing what to do. To check or not to check. I check first through my phone because we have a router in our so that could pretty explain it. I didn't want to woke up my sister by opening this computer. And I wouldn't want to be disappointed by the down server. Hopefully, it wasn't down. I didn't know that what I need to log on to their site was my applicant number so I was frustrated when I used my reference number (the one that they sent me in email). Anyway, I was so excited that my fingers were crossed hoping to my pass in my course.

Then suddenly I was jumping with joy when I saw the I passed in my first choice which is BS Psychology. And got waitlisted on the second choice. I eagerly emailed my mom and texted my sister who also studies there. I was so inspired and happy that I didn't even remember that we'll be having a quiz in our first period subject. 

I went to school just happy. Then dismissal time came. I checked my phone first which I usually do then there was a missed call from my sister. I opened her text message and then wooah "Sis, lumabas na daw UPCAT haha" "Pasado ka UPLB, Bs biology"   . Because I was so surprised, I accidentally blurted out to all my classmates that "Shet, lumabas na raw UPCAT"  Of course they were all surprised. Then they were already congratulating me because I told them what my sis texted me. I even thought that my sister was holding a prank at me. But knowing her, she wouldn't. It was unexpected. It was rumored that Upcat results will be released January 20. I couldn't still believe it even until now to be honest. I FREAKING PASSED UPCAT! My first choice campus with my first choice course. I feel so overwhelmed and blessed.

I'm just so happy that I passed in both only entrance exams that I took. Diba I told you guys that I would study in UST just because I fell inlove with the whole campus... but now I'm reconsidering everything. I realized that my goal in the first place was to pass UPCAT and study in UP. That is why I've had review classes over the summer. I shouldn't have second thought because ever since I've been wishing to study in that university. Maybe this is also because I haven't been in the campus that's why I can't made up my mind. If I could study in both university, I would. Really. Both slot that was given to me feels so important to give up. But I guess this is life, I need to choose. I'm lucky enough to even have choices in the first place. Whatever my choice will be, I'll promise to live with it and have no regrets. I'm just so thankful to the lord <3 This is so much blessings. Passing both dream universities is a stepping stone to my dreams. AAH. 

1.) UPCAT 2.)USTET