Thank you lord!

Remember my last post about how I don't know where I was going in college? Now, I have an idea. It's still feels too good to be true.

Yesterday was the official release date of USTET results. I can still remember how I slept early before the night without even studying my lessons and doing my assignments. I woke up at around two in the morning without knowing what to do. To check or not to check. I check first through my phone because we have a router in our so that could pretty explain it. I didn't want to woke up my sister by opening this computer. And I wouldn't want to be disappointed by the down server. Hopefully, it wasn't down. I didn't know that what I need to log on to their site was my applicant number so I was frustrated when I used my reference number (the one that they sent me in email). Anyway, I was so excited that my fingers were crossed hoping to my pass in my course.

Then suddenly I was jumping with joy when I saw the I passed in my first choice which is BS Psychology. And got waitlisted on the second choice. I eagerly emailed my mom and texted my sister who also studies there. I was so inspired and happy that I didn't even remember that we'll be having a quiz in our first period subject. 

I went to school just happy. Then dismissal time came. I checked my phone first which I usually do then there was a missed call from my sister. I opened her text message and then wooah "Sis, lumabas na daw UPCAT haha" "Pasado ka UPLB, Bs biology"   . Because I was so surprised, I accidentally blurted out to all my classmates that "Shet, lumabas na raw UPCAT"  Of course they were all surprised. Then they were already congratulating me because I told them what my sis texted me. I even thought that my sister was holding a prank at me. But knowing her, she wouldn't. It was unexpected. It was rumored that Upcat results will be released January 20. I couldn't still believe it even until now to be honest. I FREAKING PASSED UPCAT! My first choice campus with my first choice course. I feel so overwhelmed and blessed.

I'm just so happy that I passed in both only entrance exams that I took. Diba I told you guys that I would study in UST just because I fell inlove with the whole campus... but now I'm reconsidering everything. I realized that my goal in the first place was to pass UPCAT and study in UP. That is why I've had review classes over the summer. I shouldn't have second thought because ever since I've been wishing to study in that university. Maybe this is also because I haven't been in the campus that's why I can't made up my mind. If I could study in both university, I would. Really. Both slot that was given to me feels so important to give up. But I guess this is life, I need to choose. I'm lucky enough to even have choices in the first place. Whatever my choice will be, I'll promise to live with it and have no regrets. I'm just so thankful to the lord <3 This is so much blessings. Passing both dream universities is a stepping stone to my dreams. AAH. 

1.) UPCAT 2.)USTET

I am actually neglecting this blog

Sorry guys.. I guess my sorry won't be enough this time. I mean I haven't returned all the comments plus I have been MISSING in ACTION. I don't know. I just don't feel like blogging at all during the holidays.

My Christmas has been great and so my New Year. I welcomed this year with full of energy. POSITIVE energy. I just wished it will be effective on making my year awesome. Last year wasn't one of the best year. It was fine. I'm just thankful I'm still alive and breathing until today.

The time is coming. Yeah. Exactly 76 days before Graduation. I'll be leaving highschool. The most dramatic years of my life and the stage where I've learned a lot. There were ups and down. Soon, I'll be facing a more challenging stage.

I still don't have idea where I'll be going in college. I don't know if I failed or passed USTET because until now, I can't see my result because of the freaking server. Anyway, I wish I did but if not... maybe it's god's plan for me.

Just a catch up. I wanna revamp this blog of mine soon. Take care you guys !

Dark days

Everyone has their dark days. That empty days when you just feel empty and sad and all. It's like all the problems of the world are in your shoulders. The heart feels heavy. The mind seems to be flying away. You listen to songs the are melo. It makes you wanna go on the corner and then just cry yourself to death. But no, nothing really happens when you cry. It just makes you more aware that you have sadness. This is the moment where I actually wanna write. Just write my feelings and emotions and thoughts. The times where I wanna be expressive.

The thing is that...I have personality problems. I admit that. I'm not your normal teenager who'll grab the attention he/she can get. I am the opposite. I actually hate people who wants all the attention of the world. I'd rather be invisible than judgmental people actually getting involve with my own problems. I hate and I hate it... because hating is bad. It makes you feel bad. It makes you say bad things. It makes you more negative. And I so hate it. I just wish I'll get over this very soon.

I know I'll survive... God will not give me any problems that I cannot handle. There might be a reason. I hope I'm strong enough to handle all of them. A lot of times, I want to breakdown. I'm just thankful I never did.

I'll be back soon people:*