Shaking words out of me..

I Wonder How

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Fri, 06 Apr 2012 13:29:00 +0000

And Yes, I graduated from HIGHSCHOOL last March 29. How does it feel like to be an officially highschool graduate? I feel pretty badass!

I can still remember myself back when I was just a freshman. I was a total annoying, emotional, dramatic, and whatever adjectives that is to call a total "INNOCENT GROWING UP GIRL WITH MOOD SWINGS". I was that girl. I always wanted attention. I spend most of the time on the internet.Posting pictures, editing and whatnots. And also because of that I got in trouble. Particularly, blogging. But the incident never stopped me from doing what I like. I learned from it. Sophomore year came, I transferred school.

It was my most memorable year. I met new people. I become really different. My perspective in life definitely changed. It was the people around me and also the school that helped me change myself. I become more interested in studying and facing the books. I found fascination in numbers and words. I become more timid. From that overconfident kikay girl to a serious timid type of girl. People take me more seriously.

Junior year.I was the president of our class. We were a united group. There were lesser misunderstanding and more understanding of each other's fault. My relationship with each of my classmates grew and I become more attached to them. But this was actually my lazy year, I can still remember. Bad habits started. Not that I smoke or drink, it's just that I didn't felt like giving my best in studying. My grades were on that consistent track but not on the highest. Nevertheless, I was contended with myself and my achievements.

It felt just like yesterday when I started Senior Year. And then in popping boom, it suddenly ended.Senior Year is actually the most busy and saddest year. Every activity with your classmates will be emotional. Emotional because it'll be the last. Last year in highschool. Last year with them. /lastlast. Time will fly so fast, you will barely notice it. The best part though, you will learn to let go of things. This year, I got what I actually been aiming to. I passed my entrance exams for college. I received awards in graduation. My family is proud of me. What's not to be glad about? except that for the next school year, I will not be seeing the same people I was used to seeing.

Honestly, I was actually glad leaving highschool but not my Alma Mater. Guess that even make sense.

Last thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 09:53:00 +0000

"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you"

I just want to tell you guys that I'm gonna be active here soon. I'm just letting every projects, last exams and activities finished. I just had my birthday last February 5 and I didn't even bothered to have a proper blog about it. I feel sorry for myself. EH. But to tell you this, I had fun because almost all of my classmates and other friends went to my party. I'm finally sixteen! What a cliche thing to say. I'm also done defending my thesis. It went well, I hoped. Although there was a slight failure on my introduction because the video I prepared didn't played on the school's computer. It wasn't that important but it kind of broke my momentum. More than that, I also had my last prom last Thursday. I prepared our last will and testament plus our prophecy presentation. I feel kind of emotional now about what just happened. I enjoyed the whole night. I was even laughing my ass out to the point that I spit all the pasta I just ate. Best moment ever I can never forget. Aside from me getting wild during the disco dance.

Meet my awesome~~/autistic~~ dance partner, so kulit and funny : P

One thing that just ruined my night was my feelings. I guess I wasn't entirely happy on what I said to that person. I felt horrible. Although I settled it and said my true feelings, I just think he doesn't deserve it. But still I did it... and that's up to me to find why I did it. I know, I'm so weird. Until now, I don't know what is wrong with me. So much for prom.

We will be having our final exam this Friday. This is my last chance to pull my grades up. I haven't been studying this past few days because I always felt sleepy and lazy. I'm taking the blame. It's not because of the computer, my cellphone or anything. It's just me deciding to just sleep instead of studying. I guess I'd just been so stressed lately that even in my sleep, I talk.

Nevertheless, February is still my favorite and best month. I have discovered a lot of things in myself. There is always time for changing. Make a change, today, tomorrow and the future ♡ xoxo. Have a nice day everyone!

Thank you lord!

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 10:50:00 +0000

Remember my last post about how I don't know where I was going in college? Now, I have an idea. It's still feels too good to be true.

Yesterday was the official release date of USTET results. I can still remember how I slept early before the night without even studying my lessons and doing my assignments. I woke up at around two in the morning without knowing what to do. To check or not to check. I check first through my phone because we have a router in our so that could pretty explain it. I didn't want to woke up my sister by opening this computer. And I wouldn't want to be disappointed by the down server. Hopefully, it wasn't down. I didn't know that what I need to log on to their site was my applicant number so I was frustrated when I used my reference number (the one that they sent me in email). Anyway, I was so excited that my fingers were crossed hoping to my pass in my course.

Then suddenly I was jumping with joy when I saw the I passed in my first choice which is BS Psychology. And got waitlisted on the second choice. I eagerly emailed my mom and texted my sister who also studies there. I was so inspired and happy that I didn't even remember that we'll be having a quiz in our first period subject.

I went to school just happy. Then dismissal time came. I checked my phone first which I usually do then there was a missed call from my sister. I opened her text message and then wooah "Sis, lumabas na daw UPCAT haha" "Pasado ka UPLB, Bs biology" . Because I was so surprised, I accidentally blurted out to all my classmates that "Shet, lumabas na raw UPCAT" Of course they were all surprised. Then they were already congratulating me because I told them what my sis texted me. I even thought that my sister was holding a prank at me. But knowing her, she wouldn't. It was unexpected. It was rumored that Upcat results will be released January 20. I couldn't still believe it even until now to be honest. I FREAKING PASSED UPCAT! My first choice campus with my first choice course. I feel so overwhelmed and blessed.

I'm just so happy that I passed in both only entrance exams that I took. Diba I told you guys that I would study in UST just because I fell inlove with the whole campus... but now I'm reconsidering everything. I realized that my goal in the first place was to pass UPCAT and study in UP. That is why I've had review classes over the summer. I shouldn't have second thought because ever since I've been wishing to study in that university. Maybe this is also because I haven't been in the campus that's why I can't made up my mind. If I could study in both university, I would. Really. Both slot that was given to me feels so important to give up. But I guess this is life, I need to choose. I'm lucky enough to even have choices in the first place. Whatever my choice will be, I'll promise to live with it and have no regrets. I'm just so thankful to the lord <3 This is so much blessings. Passing both dream universities is a stepping stone to my dreams. AAH.

1.) UPCAT 2.)USTET

I am actually neglecting this blog

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 10:46:00 +0000

Sorry guys.. I guess my sorry won't be enough this time. I mean I haven't returned all the comments plus I have been MISSING in ACTION. I don't know. I just don't feel like blogging at all during the holidays.

My Christmas has been great and so my New Year. I welcomed this year with full of energy. POSITIVE energy. I just wished it will be effective on making my year awesome. Last year wasn't one of the best year. It was fine. I'm just thankful I'm still alive and breathing until today.

The time is coming. Yeah. Exactly 76 days before Graduation. I'll be leaving highschool. The most dramatic years of my life and the stage where I've learned a lot. There were ups and down. Soon, I'll be facing a more challenging stage.

I still don't have idea where I'll be going in college. I don't know if I failed or passed USTET because until now, I can't see my result because of the freaking server. Anyway, I wish I did but if not... maybe it's god's plan for me.

Just a catch up. I wanna revamp this blog of mine soon. Take care you guys !

Dark days

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 11:07:00 +0000

Everyone has their dark days. That empty days when you just feel empty and sad and all. It's like all the problems of the world are in your shoulders. The heart feels heavy. The mind seems to be flying away. You listen to songs the are melo. It makes you wanna go on the corner and then just cry yourself to death. But no, nothing really happens when you cry. It just makes you more aware that you have sadness. This is the moment where I actually wanna write. Just write my feelings and emotions and thoughts. The times where I wanna be expressive.

The thing is that...I have personality problems. I admit that. I'm not your normal teenager who'll grab the attention he/she can get. I am the opposite. I actually hate people who wants all the attention of the world. I'd rather be invisible than judgmental people actually getting involve with my own problems. I hate and I hate it... because hating is bad. It makes you feel bad. It makes you say bad things. It makes you more negative. And I so hate it. I just wish I'll get over this very soon.

I know I'll survive... God will not give me any problems that I cannot handle. There might be a reason. I hope I'm strong enough to handle all of them. A lot of times, I want to breakdown. I'm just thankful I never did.

I'll be back soon people:*

Pills for the week.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 03 Dec 2011 10:36:00 +0000

This week is a really hectic week. Sorry for being unupdated.

Last Tuesday, we had our Gala, Speech Choir and PE dance presentation. It was hella tiring so let's just skip that because it wasn't really a big impact on my week. I'm just thankful that it's done. I can now finally have my early vacation. *sarcasm*

(c)Google Images

The thing is.. I want to make kwentos about my adventures (which is last Wednesday and also today) to some of my classmate's house. Last Wednesday, we went to Jerald's house to shoot for our Filipino project which is a documentary about Jose Rizal. We ate lunch there and it was very productive. Jerald's house is really big plus he has a lot of friends in their subdivision which kinda reminds me of my brother. It was our first time visiting their house because he is not really the type who's active in school but he's nice at these things. It makes me realized that for almost three years we've been together, I barely know some of them. And imagine, we'll be graduating within 3 months. I really want to enjoy every moment with them.

We then hit the road afterwards. Then unexpectedly saw another classmate who'll be going to hannah's house. So we decided to go with them. It was actually unplanned. We just went to there to chill and do nothing, just letting the time pass by. Then another unexpectedly classmates came by, we were on full force. Almost all of my classmates were there. We had an open forum. Then I went home feeling tired but very very happy because I have learned a lot of things from my classmates. I really can't forget that day. That is one of the highlights of my week.

Today, we went to Daniel's house. He's also one of my groupmates in Filipino. We did shoot some parts again... and it was very hot. It's a great experience though because I've been to his house finally. His house is really far away from our place, I understand now why he's always late in school. After finishing our business in Daniel's house, we went to Jam's place. It was also my first time to be in their new house. We didn't do our CL project because it was almost finished and jam already did it all by herself. I was surprised because I thought we would be doing a lot of work but instead we just talk about friendship things and about some private things and LAUGH.. a lot.

I will really miss them... but I don't want to think about it right now.

Limit the expectation, the world is full of disappointment.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 12:07:00 +0000

The whole week I was on a dazed. But that doesn't stop me from doing great things. I'm okay now. Finally over with the sore throat.

Today was supposed to be just a movie date with my girlfriend and .... I shouldn't be forcing myself to wake up at 6 am. But I did. Because we had our final physical and mental exam for C.A.T. I mean not really. It was just an exercise and ceremony for the incoming officers. Which I am part of and I should be thankful even though I got the lowest score. I wasn't really that much of an aspiring officer if you ask me but I think it'll be a great experience too. I love my position though, it suits me very well. I am not very vocal and prefer writing things. I am a freaking frustrated writer.

We had our exercise in the oval near our place. We jog around the place. Crawl around the place. And even roll around. It was hell. And we also did some eeckyy challenges and my VERY FIRST time to experience those kind of things. It wasn't much of a torture. It was just very tiring.

Then afterwards, I headed to Gessika's crib to change clothes for our movie date together with Camele and Jam. We actually planned this last week. Gladly, my parents allowed me to go. Also because my sister had asked me a favor in exchange of their permission. Lawl. There's no free lunch in this world.

We arrived for the second showing. Just in time to buy foods and junks to nomnom. Then while going inside the movie house, we bumped into our adviser. It was definitely unexpected. So when we were already inside, we had to roam the whole movie house to find comfortable seats. But the whole movie house was almost full ~~(what to expect. It's the first day of showing.)~~ and there's no available seats that we could be seating together except for the first row.I know right. It was a headache!We had a hard time adjusting at first. As time goes by, we get used to it.

I enjoyed the whole movie. I didn't expected Breaking Dawn to be that good. I've been watching the twilight series (movie) in the cinema and always end up cracking and disappointed. You have a really different opinion when you read the books. I guess it's really right to limit the expectations. Anyway, it was great! Even though half of the movie was just all about the honeymoon of Bella and Edward (obviously) . I was laughing the whole time because of the witty comments of my friends. Also because the actors improved a lot. And I was drooling over my taylor baby. PLUS +

The cinematography was great.
They didn't cut the good details from the book.
The wedding was very romantic.
The setting of the island was very realistic... just like what I've imagine while reading the book.
And THE TRANSFORMATION ! definitely could not miss this part. This was my favorite because they really showed the blood and all inside bella's body. It was very very very good.
We shouldn't forget the soundtrack
Some funny part especially the name "EJAY" lol
And the IMPRINTING
Also the thingamajig/make outs of Bella and Edward.
The red eyes of Bella.
AND

My friends and I laughed out loud during that scene because we remembered Ellen. Haha.

I would definitely watch out for the part 2.

I'll be very busy this coming week. We have lots of presentation to make and also projects. Wish me luck!

Everyone's an artist in their own way

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 11:07:00 +0000

I woke up today not feeling so great. Sometimes, I hate being a girl. Plus my throat hurts maybe because I ate ice cream without mercy yesterday. And now I'm suffering from that annoying cough I made every five minutes. There's no one to blame but my recent eating/craving of sweets during my sore throat moments. If you know what I mean. You have a sore throat and then you kept eating chocolates because of your craves. Fail craves I swear.

I went to the mall today. I bought some stuff for school. As usual, my mall touring will never be complete without a book shop stop. Thirty minutes of just going through all the books and magazines in booksale. I was seriously sure I wasn't buying anything until I accidentally saw a book which in my case will most probably be very useful in my thesis. Since my topic was all about Peer Pressure.

I went home afterwards. Feeling better about my life just because I finally have my pastel and could do my art activity. I used to be not interested in arts you know. Until recently I discovered that I have talent in mixing colors and all. You see, I realized this based on experience. Everyone's an artist. If you can see beauty in everything, you're an artist. I'm definitely not the type who could draw thing realistically.But like what I said I am great with colors and I just have that eye who can see beauty differently. I think it's a pretty extraordinary talent because not everyone can see beauty differently but anyone can be. You just need to try.

Like what I'm doing. I'm trying very hard deal with oil pastels. I'm not really good at using them. I'm more of the paint-y type using brushes. This is our art activity by the way. I guess the outcome is not that bad. There's some flaws of course. Everyone has flaws. But you know, The whole is greater than the sum of its parts.

It's funny how my subjects are making a difference in my life now. I thought they're just some kind of added knowledge that you won't be really needing in real life. Kind of an ornament for me. I guess not always. I shouldn't take things for granted.

Growing up can be really though.

After all, I am obliged to have a long post.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 05 Nov 2011 11:42:00 +0000

We had our Retreat yesterday Nov. 4 until today after lunch.

Nov.4

I woke up at around 5:30 am, I was really lazy to move my ass out. It was a nice day. But I have forgotten my freaking I.D and our gadgets were confiscated (but really I wasn't that affected). We waited for like three hours for the MTS bacoor seniors to arrive. I mean really. Then our administrators talk to us and reminded us on things that we should do in the retreat house and also why it is important to have our retreat. I really love my school for making us closer to God. I don't have any regrets for transferring. I think that MOTHER THERESA is the best thing that ever happened to my life. Going back, we arrived at Tagaste Retreat House at around 1:00 PM. The first thing we did was checked our dorm and put our things in place. Then Sister Bridget talked to us and reminded us of the things we should not do around the building. After that our session began. Our guidance counselor shared her very inspiring story about her parents. She told us that we should always cherish the moment with our parents. And we shouldn't just take them for granted just because they're always there. I was really touched and felt like bawling. Then she asked us to write a letter for our dear parents. I wrote a letter to my mom and my lolo which they will receive on graduation day. It was so emotional. I really cried. Then Brother Joseph talked to us for almost three hours. It was really long but I've learned a lot from him. Also realized a lot of things at the same time. He shared his life. He shared many things. We played a game. And we even had a personality test which was really fun. I didn't mind the time for the first time. I wasn't aware as long as I know that God is much closer to me now. "Live as if you'll die tomorrow, Learn as if you'll live forever" "Love until it hurts." "Love and you be loved." , some quotes that had a very great impact on my life.We had our dinner at around 7:00 I think. We shared table with the bacoor students. It was really nice meeting them. It wasn't that bad. Socializing aha.. at least I'm improving. I even had a crush. He's really handsome. His name is Gelo. He's funny, I got to seat in the same table with him. Anyway enough with that so after our dinner, we went back in listening to brother Joseph. Then some of us had our Confession. It was really fulfilling. We slept at almost midnight.

Nov.5

I woke up at 1 am in the morning. I was really cold and I was feeling really bad. Like I'm having a fever. It was so cold. So I slept again (srsly I didn't slept well). Then I was awoken by my classmates' voices at 4 am. And I realized I do have a slight fever. It was hell. So I just had a half bath and then went down for prayers then breakfast. I was feeling okay after taking medicine. And when our Third Session came, I was so sleepy and wasn't able to listen that much to Brother Sunny. It's really a waste but it can't be helped. My body was feeling weak. It wasn't great, really bad timing fever. Blaming the sweets I have eaten yesterday and the cold water. Anyway, after that we get to listen to Father Benjie. I was able to listen already and focus my mind. He explained to us the three main wars (Sacrifice vs Comfort, Spirit vs Flesh and Communion vs Individualism). I learned a lot of things as usual. We had our snack. Then we had our anticipated mass afterwards. Sad to say, I was somehow sleepy again (effects of the medicine and my lack of sleep). Ugh. We had our lunch at exactly 12:00 PM. Our last activity in Tagaste. Then our gadgets were returned and they allowed us to take some pictures around the area. Then we left Tagaste. Just one hour ride from there back to school. I was feeling really tired but happy. Since it was birthday of Jam yesterday, she decided to treat us in Gotohan. I was so full and was feeling better. I didn't went home afterwards. I went to Gessika's House then we rest then we went to Sunny Brooke 2 to watch a basketball game (liga). We waited for almost thirty minutes before the game started because it was raining. I did enjoy the game because my crushesss were there. But they were really snob. Oh well bawas pogi points.They won though so that's another thing.We were also laughing really hard during the game because some of the players do stupid things sometimes and my classmates keeps shouting things which was really funny. I went home at 6 PM. Thankfully, my brother didn't gave me a sermon for arriving late.

Today is really fulfilling because of God.

Shut up Crime

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Fri, 14 Oct 2011 11:52:00 +0000

Just because I don't have a title in mind. I will not be talking about crimes, don't worry, I've had enough of that with the news. I just remember that quote from the weird movie I watched recently. It's about people trying to be a superhero. I'm not really recommending it since it's really violent. But you may want to check it out. So, next week will be our finals for 2nd quarter. Well really just saying, I don't want to talk about school either. The thing is that I don't want to talk about anything these past few days. I just think. Overthinking which leads to negative thoughts.

Honestly, I just don't want to talk all about my life because I don't feel safe around the net. People lurking around my little blog. But I know right, it's a blog so you expect people to read it but sometimes there are things you just don't want to be in public. You might hurt other's people feelings.

I'll be back after our finals <3 you guys please don't delete me on your link page. I need to find myself .

1st quarter, really, I need to strive harder.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Fri, 23 Sep 2011 12:29:00 +0000

After a looongggggg weeks of not updating and not bloghopping. I finally had a time for my blog. I quite miss it. The title says it all. Ugh. I'm not satisfied with my grades this quarter especially ~~math and science~~ errr scratch that I mean most of my subjects. I don't know. I'm just very unfocused and there seems to be a lot of distraction. ~~I think it's facebook lol wtf~~ I should deactivate.. no, really, my mind is going through a lot of daydreaming recently. I'm just very uninspired to study. I mean.. you know... it feels like I'm a robot not learning anything by heart. It's like I'm just having a memory test whenever we have an exam. It's really not effective. Cramming is really not healthy, I tell you. I need to have a study habit. I'm going to college. I need an improvement. But of course I also don't want to just engaged myself in all these school works. This is my last chance in highschool. K enough school stuff, it's boring right? I just wished we could just study english literature the whole time.

So here's an alien thought : I'm in crush crisis. I must stop thinking all about these guys. It's harder than I thought. Woooh Seriously, why am I experiencing all these things now... why... I've been in a different situation before and it was hard but right now, it's harder. Damn highschool love, so overrated.

My last pill. You guys know how much I've been in love with all time low and how much I wanted to meet them or see them and listen to their song live... I just can't. I wasn't able to go. IT'S A DISASTER. I'm such a loser. What a tiring week and depressing. Ugh.

See, I'm really unfocused. Wow. I'll get back when I back myself. Geez. What a post. What a blog.

Remember the old days

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Wed, 31 Aug 2011 11:42:00 +0000

Today was our Culminating for Buwan ng Wika. To tell you honestly, I wasn't that happy with my presentation. But yeah I guess we all have to experience something bad in every good situation. Anyway, It's fine.. the sun was shining brightly and my stomach was full.We played agawang buko/ agawang bola with langis and luksong tinik in which I participated but didn't win because it has been a long time since I played those kind of games. It was fun experiencing those games again. It makes me reminisce my childhood days where I was always excited for the afternoon to come just to play hide and seek with my playmates. The fun of being a kid. The no hiya hiya effect. The inoccent me, My jolly self? I wonder how it all vanished. Thinking about it, I seem to be very boring now. ~~Blame the computer. A temptation I couldn't refuse.~~ It was a really tiring day and worth it too. At least, for a half day we were able to pay attention to our own language and appreciate it.

Great, it's raining again. Sometimes I don't really understand what's going on with the weather. I remember the movie I just watched recently. It's entitled Submarine. My friend shared it to me. It's a really great movie to watch in this time of the year where the weather is very unpredictable. I just love Oliver Tate. He's interesting. I wish to meet a guy like him. Intellectually weird wallflower guys are just wah <3. You guys should watch it. It makes you re think the things you've done in your life. Also listen to some of the soundtrack which was composed by Alex Turner from Arctic Monkeys. The songs gives you the feeling of falling inlove hard and falling apart lightly. What? lol But that's just for me.

Lazy Bee

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 27 Aug 2011 06:30:00 +0000

Sorry for being ~~MIA~~ the past month..I've been so busy and lazy. Senior year is really really frustrating. Imagine, I had my entrance exams in two consecutive weeks (UPCAT and USTET) and then followed by our 1st quarterly exam. That was really ~~really~~ brain tiring.That was the reason I haven't had a chance to blog. And My mom went home so I was a happy lazy bee. We always went outside. Always bonding time. Ugh Enjoying my offline life too much. I hope you hadn't deleted me for not returning all the lovely comments :P Yay as you can all see I just had my new domain.. Big thanks to Ate Yesha. I'm now an official sweetposh baby <3 To my linkmates, please change my url. Thank you.

Anyway, It's a long weekend. When I come back to school, it'll be our Buwan ng Wika celebration then after that back again to academics. Oh nana. Let's talk about my college entrance exams. I've had UPCAT last August 7, It wasn't that easy nor that hard. It was just fine.I think I'll pass.They say positive thinking leads to positive results. Oh man, let's not forget about USTET. I've had it last August 14 see? just one week gap.It was great. I think I'll choose UST over UP if ever I pass with my desired course. They say it's hard to get into BS Psychology in UST.Oh well, miracles.Anyway, I'm just so glad that it's over. Now, my problem will be thesis and feasibility... next next month. I'm quite nervous. If you ask me, I still doesn't have a good topic in my mind. Ugh, what is wrong with me.

Just another hello hello post and an update with my life. I'll update more. I promise.

PS : CITY HUNTER AND HEARTSTRINGS. Fellow fangirls, how are you all feeling? suggest new kdramas please? I don't know what to do with my life.

People call it vandalism, I call it art.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sat, 11 Jun 2011 13:51:00 +0000

I've been so lazy to update. Sorry guys.. it's just that I'll be going back to school again. And I wanted to enjoy bumming around just watching movies,kdramas,reading a good book or simply day dreaming while listening to music. I know that once school starts I'll not be able to do those things again. On the brighter side of going back to school, I'm kinda excited because we'll be using the new building. I just hope so because during our orientation (last June 7) they told us that we'll be there so I'm keeping my hopes up. I also have a high expectation on our subjects this year especially physics. I can't wait to learn more about it. I really find it interesting unlike chemistry.I honestly didn't enjoyed my subjects last year.Scratch that, I mean I didn't enjoyed Geometry and Chemistry. I expected my quite low grades haha because those subjects are really pain in the ass. I'm just glad we'll have trigo and advanced algebra this school year. I just love algebra <3 hrhr Goodbye proving! Anyway, I'm just so happy I'm finally on my senior year. I can't really point out what makes me so excited about this coming school year but I think it'll be really great.

Anyway, I decided to paint my rubber shoes for a change. I always love painting you know. Although, I already admitted to myself that I'm not very good at it but I know there's always room for improvements. I actually had a hard time deciding on what design and color I would paint on my filthy shoes. I used black as my base but I didn't paint it all over my shoes. Just half of it because they don't allow us to use black shoes just white. Kinda sucks but yeah that's rules. At first, I thought about doing the batman sign. AND yeah I failed. It actually looks like hahaha you guys judge.

Guess what happened. Because I was too furious I couldn't think of anything. I decided to leave it and just listen to my music. Then it finally came into my brains. It may look bad for others but I actually liked its outcome so basically I don't care. haha. I'll wash this off when I get tired.

As you can see, it's not something to brag. Should I buy a new shoes? hahaha. Jk. It looks rubbish but I like it. It's my own work and what I learned from experience is that you should at least love your own work if others don't love it since it's your own work and not anyone else work's. Make sense? hell yeah. That shoes is actually 2 years old already and I bought that for only 400php. See, what a bargain. Don't ask me why it looks old coz yeah it's old.

When you're with your crazy bestfriends.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Mon, 30 May 2011 13:33:00 +0000

Mondays are always boring for me.But except today. I went to Gessika's house with Charmaine. They're both my bestfriends. Let me introduce them to you.Gessika is the jolly type/romantic/ novels freak like me/ who looks like an American/ who happens to be a very talented person and an only child so that left her house always free from people (siblings) except her parents. Charmaine,on the other hand, is the quiet type/ fashion freak like me/ who looks like a Korean/ who happens to be a great listener and an adviser when you have problems.I have such awesome bestfriends.As you can see, I'm actually the big event planner of this event. What a word to describe spending time with your bestfriends. Haha. I planned this what you call *big event* for Gessika because she's been really down lately because her closest granny passed away recently. I wanna go comfort her and make her forget about it all just for a day. Yes, that's what friends are for.What we did at her house well just the usual things but it's really special for all of us.We watched "Something Borrowed". I actually watched that already but I still suggested and forced them to watch it. That movie is just so great. It's a must-watch movie everyone, MUST WATCH! I can't help but drool at Dex.. he is the new Tom Cruise. He's that hot.I can't....(okay,Mariel why are you talking about Dex? you're supposed to be talking about...)So,we watched that movie and then afterwards we talked and then took lots of pictures, crazzyyy pictures. I didn't bring my camera (Gahd, Mariel, at times like this. ) with me so we just used her laptop's webcam. That could probably explain the low quality. Afterwards, we decided to make a facebook page and a tumblr to store all our photos and also to get some attention.lol. We call ourselves "G4M".. Feel free to follow and like *winkwink*. Overall, my event is a big success. We made her happy plus we both enjoyed each other's company. I'm so glad I met these two girls.

Charmaine,Gessika and me.

Most of you can't really comment about this post so I decided to ask some questions you can answer that is related with my topic.
1.If you have a bestfriend/closefriend, what do you like most about him/her/them?

2.When and how did you meet them?

3.Are you still friends with him/her/them? What's the best/worst thing that had ever happened to you with them?

Before I end this post, I want to do this tag. Thank you Ate Grysh, Trish and Joebs for tagging me.

RULES:1. Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves.2. You have to choose and tag 10 people.3. Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them.4. No tag backs.5. Have fun.

1. I honestly prefer milk flavors than chocolate.
2. I'm a frustrated singer but I'm in a choir. Lol ;))))
3. I love reading books, obviously.
4. I can't go out looking like a mess. I always make sure that my clothes are best matched and neat.
5. One of my insecurities are the red pimples scars on one side of my face. I honestly hate people who notices it and ask me about it. It makes my self esteem low.
6. I used to be a tomboy and love WRESTLING/BASKETBALL when I was in 4th Grade.
7. I love being called "MARS". Like the planet Mars. It's pleasant to my ear.
8. I never had a boyfriend. Fictional, yes. Real, no.
9. I spend most of my time at home using the computer.
10. I love bands like We the kings, The Maine, All Time Low, Boys like Girls and Before You Exit.

I think almost everyone I know has been tagged and it'll be just a waste if I tag them, so yeah :) But feel free to grab this. I'm such a rule breaker.

The End

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Wed, 25 May 2011 10:04:00 +0000

There are two things I want to talk about and yes, it's related with title.And NO, not about the end of the world. Duh, you guys shouldn't believe about those things. Remember, only God knows <3 .

So,first things first. Last week, 49 Days ended. Finally, the long wait is over. It has come to an end. I still can't believe and compose myself about everything that had happened in that drama. It was a long ride. I didn't expected it to end just like that. Of course, I was disappointed (like almost all will). But at the same time, I also realize some things about life and death. How could this drama affects me so much? Ugh, it's that good. Like right now, I just want live like there's no tomorrow. I realized that life is that precious.

Second thing that has come to an end is my review classes. Yesterday, we had our simulations .I was having mixed feelings while taking the exam. I think I did okay. I just hope that the results would be okay. Anyway, I will definitely miss this review classes. I will miss all the great teachers and also my awesome classmates. Overall, I had so much fun at this review center plus I've learned lots of things that could be very useful not only for college entrance exams but also in school. T.T It was so worth it. My summer has been so great because of this and I couldn't ask for more. It was so fun learning with all the teachers cracking jokes every time. Brain Train is the best review center ever!! You guys will never regret enrolling here.

I wish to meet all these people again someday.

Badass days

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Wed, 11 May 2011 13:14:00 +0000

Day 6 of review classes ended today. Well, all I can say is that I'm finally absorbing everything.Thank you brain for finally cooperating. I feel really weary today.

Look at what I have found while cleaning my desk :

I've found this little artwork we've done in art class (if you can call that an artwork,haha). As you can see, we were imitating the hieroglyphics which is the earliest formal writing use by the ancient Egyptians. The funny thing is that I can't even remember the meaning of the whole thing. That is supposed to be a sentence. The only thing I could remember is the "**with scroll scroll" means GIDDY. Oh please. That moment when all your artworks is about love because it's easy to express *tears*.

On the other hand, I'll say that this week is really productive. I learned new things from the the review and been helping in the house which I don't usually do because I rely on the people around here. *cheers* lazy butt is currently inactive. Yay.

Fangirl mode : FINALLY! A NEW SONG from my favorite girl group. F(x) and 2NE1. Sulli is so so adorable. And I miss Bommie and Dara. <3 If you're a fellow fangirl, who's your favorite member and why?

Crappy things

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Thu, 05 May 2011 08:59:00 +0000

I didn't update for almost a week. Sorry to all my visitor for such a crappy and unmaintained blog. I promise I'll work on this one after my review. Yes, my review started last May 2 and I've been busy as hell. I feel so preoccupied right now because of it. My brain is still adjusting from the "thinking/doing-nothing-but-sleeping-and-eating" to a sudden "thinking-about-mathematics-science-and-english". It's like I've forgotten all the things I've learned from my three years in highschool. It seems like my brain got surprised from the sudden over-thinking that I've forgotten almost everything.

Anyway, I decided to put the "FOLLOW" box in my sidebar. Feel free to follow blogspot friends and don't forget to inform me so I can follow back. I want to be active again here in the blogosphere. I don't want to miss the great things again. I'm also very open for link exchange.Short post for now, you can just follow me in twitter or tumblr.

Just some things

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sun, 24 Apr 2011 10:01:00 +0000

Hello again guys! I'm finally back to my ~~happy~~ self again. Thank you to those who commented on my last post!I feel really great to open up in this blog and have so many sisters to talk to and open up.I think that the only solution for what I'm feeling is not to think about it more often.It's really frustrating. I just hope that those feelings of mine will go away.

Went to the mall yesterday. Bought some stuff. Ate ice cream. And just roam around. Exactly my type of summer. No, really. I'm stuck here at home. DAILY. Anyway, here are some stuff that I bought yesterday and need to be feature in my blog just because :

The Adventure of Tom Sawyer. I really had a hard time looking for this book because it was on hidden on the stand. I spent almost 30 minutes looking for this but anyway I have no regret since I got this for only 79.25. It was originally 99php. Dude, look how much I save. Almost 20php. This is why I love classic books. I still haven't read this, maybe sometime this week. I just finished reading Cloaked by Alex Flinn. It was real nice.
Korean Ice Cream. The left one is called Samanco and the right one is Frozen Yogurt. Samanco is a sandwich ice cream (vanilla plus red bean paste) don't worry, it doesn't taste like fish , it just looks like a fish. It's yummy at first but halfway through, I feel like vomiting. Definitely not my taste for ice cream though but some people might like it. That frozen yogurt is heaven. One word. HEAVEN. It's perfection. Koreans are definitely great maker of Ice cream.
Superdrug tea tree facial wash and moisturizer.I've been using the facial wash for almost 2 months now. It feels really great on the face and gentle. It doesn't leave my skin flaky, dry or anything. I've been really having bad break outs these past months. Gahd. It is so frustrating because once the pimple healed, another one popped out. It's just unbearable. Right now, my cheeks are unusually red because of the pimple scars, so ugly ugly and depressing.I discover that this is PIH and takes months or even years to heal.I hate it but I think I just need to bear with it for now. I won't put any other products on my face anymore since it makes my face more irritated. Anyway, this product kinda helps in healing my current pimples and don't give new pimples. And the moisturizer (which I just tried yesterday) was so great. My skin feels smooth and doesn't feel greasy at all when applied.These product are really cheap too compare to Body Shop tea tree. And the smell is not that bad ;). The only con for this is that the facial wash is kinda hard to remove but I don't have problems with it. I only use this product day and night. I've also read in the net that we shouldn't wash our face more than 3 times a day because it might irritates our skin. So I guess, that's what happened to me. I followed the advice of one of my classmate to wash my face always before putting powder. Damn it. Now, look at my face, uglier than ever. I miss my old skin where I barely have pimples and scars.

I used to like going home but right now, I just want to go out and leave this suffocating place.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Mon, 18 Apr 2011 12:51:00 +0000

I am such a selfish person. I whine. I hate. Sorry,God.But I want someone to give me some air. I mean seriously. Being stucked here at home with these bunch of people.... I couldn't bear it. I just couldn't bear with a person who is so irresponsible with his life.

I used to live here comfortably. But right now, I am very uncomfortable. This is my mother's house and I shouldn't be the one who's uncomfortable. :'( I mean a family should give you a comfortable living not only financially but also emotionally.This has been my problem for the past months. This house is not comforting for me anymore. I used to love this place. Now, No, I just want get out here.I know that I'm the only one with the problem. They don't have problems. and I don't want to give them problems by telling them my problems. I'm glad I have a home, yes. Some people say "I'm glad I'm home" because they could see their parents and their siblings but me I say "I'm glad I'm home" cause I can sleep,eat and browse the net. I know right. This place seems not a home to me anymore but just a house.

I should be glad to have a house to live in because there are a lot of people who live on the street. I should be glad about everything. But instead I am annoyed at the most simplest thing on this earth. I whine about the people around me. I cry because I feel like I have lots of problems. Problems that are not really major problems. Just problems about myself. Issues about myself. Insecurities about myself.Compared to those who's suffering from a sudden death of a person/family/friend these problems of mine are nothing. I know. I know. Forgive me but I just want to let this out.

It's just that I find comfort by blogging my problems. It seems like the most natural thing to do for me. I'm glad that I could share my thoughts here freely. Hooo.

My views on : "49 Days" SBS New Kdrama

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Wed, 06 Apr 2011 09:15:00 +0000

Do not proceed if you do not watch Korean Dramas and have no plans on watching.

Hello guys! I really do not know how to start this post, seriously. I do not have worth sharing except this drama I've been watching. I've learned about this drama in some streaming sites in the internet and also I've heard about it from Ate Sandra. It's really addicting, I tell you. If you're really busy this summer and do not want any distraction, do not watch this drama. But if you're bored in the internet and have nothing to do with your life (which may be very possible because it's summer) then do not think twice.

Details

Title : 49 Days

Genre: Fantasy, Romance

Broadcast network: SBS

Air time: Wednesday & Thursday 21:55

Synopsis

A young woman named Ji Hyun was enjoying absolute bliss as she was about to be married with her fiancé, but her perfect life is shattered in a car accident that left her in a coma. She is given a second chance at life by a reaper, but it comes with a condition: she has to find three people outside of her family who would cry genuine tears for her. In order to do this, she borrows the body of Yi Kyung, a part-time employee at a convenience store.

source : http://wiki.d-addicts.com/49_Days

At first, I really thought this drama is boring. To be honest, I just watched this drama for me to have something to do this summer since I'm really bored.I really didn't expect a good reaction or something alike.When I watched the first episode,I was like"Why is there a guy at the top of the building? PLAYING A GUITAR?" then then then.... I SAW JUNG IL WOO... I really didn't know he was here.

So as you all know (if you've read the plot) . This is another soul swapping themed drama. I wonder why it's popular in Korea. Remember "Secret Garden"? Anyway, what keeps me watching 49 Days is because of Jung's role which is the Scheduler. I'm really curious about how he become the scheduler. I also read some comments that maybe he's the deceased boyfriend of Song Yi Kyung. I think it was in the 4th episode when he said that he felt weird and uncomfortable in the house of Song Yi Kyung. To those who are also watching this drama , what do you guys think?

I really can't wait for the next episodes. Just so you know, there are already 6 episodes available in the internet. You may want to watch them here :

So Far..

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Thu, 31 Mar 2011 09:29:00 +0000

You might not believe it but before school year 2010-2011 started I have made up a list of what I want to accomplish. Gosh. Time flies so fast and the school year already ended. I promised that by the end of the year I would show the things I have accomplish and not accomplished so here it comes..

Mariel's 2010-2011 school year's goal

[x] Be part of the student council

✔ Prom Queen or any award in Prom night.

[x] All subjects certificate (1st-4th Quarter)

✔ Merit Award

✔ To be close with at least (1) or (2) or more schoolmates.

[x] Be active in all activities involved.

3/6 ,Not bad right? Some of you might be wondering why is it my goal "to be close with some schoolmate" , it's because I have observed that I've been kind of awkward when dealing with people. I mean my social skills have gone low that I only talked to my classmates and no other people involved. Talk about social issues. I don't know when I've been like this but I guess I need to change my habits.So yesterday was our Recognition. I got the merit award. They were so proud of me and so do I, I am so proud of myself. I want to thank lord, of course, for guiding me all this time.

On the other hand, me and my sister just finished this korean drama entitled "It's okay,daddy's girl". The first 10 episodes were really heartbreaking. I was really crying while watching it. I've lost my father when I was young so my grandfather is the one who stands as my father and I could see the actor as my grandpa so I was deeply affected by it. The drama was really touching. The story is good too.And DONGHAE from SUPER JUNIOR and Nam Jihyun from 4 minute are there too.Now, I wondered why it was underrated. Anyway guys I'm recommending that drama if you have nothing to watch :D . You could watch it here.

Have a great summer everyone!

Turn Over Ceremony 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 10:59:00 +0000

Yesterday was our Turn Over Ceremony / JS Prom. It was an awaited day for us Juniors since it's our first time and I guess also for our Seniors since it's their last time. From our school perspective, Prom isn't about who's the most beautiful or who has great dates. Prom for us is about Leadership and Responsibility. We'll soon be Seniors and we need to be mature enough to be able to handle bigger responsibility. As a president of our class, the key was turned over to me.

It was really a fun cozy night. The entrance were pretty hyper. We were asked to walk like models in a fashion shows.That's why we were wearing shades.Gown+Shades = YEAH ROCK AND ROLL BABY WE'RE MAKING OUR OWN STATEMENT HERE.On the other hand,I was glad our cotillion was successful. There weren't many mistakes.I did not even expect to be the PROM QUEEN. *like a bozz*

BEST NIGHT EVER!

Family Day 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 08:16:00 +0000

Yesterday was our Family Day. The theme was "MTS Family Bonding naman Tayo". Sadly, there was no ball games but I was able to wear my jersey just for fun. HOHOHO!~ Everything went well, gladly. I think that the highschool dep. performance was the best. I cannot forget all the happy moments with my classmates and our last Family Day with the Seniors. The night was just full of camera flashes. Everyone seems to be hyper. This year's family day seems to be simple and basic yet more fun unlike last year which is more like into the high performance level (you know, like theater like )

With some of my girlfriends.. Weeeee LOOK, I'm wearing my jersey. Haha!

Anyhow, I cannot believe it. Prom then Recog then SUMMER then SENIOR YEAR then COLLEGE. UHUUUUHUUUHHH. Sulit sulitin na :). It suck though that we still have to go to school this week for Prom practice. Prom should be like February but anyway, can't be blame. Classy Venue in the month of Feb is super pricey. I really appreciate that our school think about us. Yiee. I love my school <3 I have no regrets in transferring here.

School Year's about to end.

noreply@blogger.com (Ieyel R.) — Fri, 18 Mar 2011 11:51:00 +0000

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I blogged again, formally I mean. I still blog... in tumblr but most post aren't really serious. I wasn't updating regularly like I used to in my old blog. As you can see (to those who still remember me from my previous blog) , I have been silent in the blogging world because my last blog (irrevocably.net) has been hacked. I'm also flat broke right now that's why I wasn't able to buy a domain. For the mean time (until I earned money again) I'll stick here in blogspot.

So guys, how was life?

My life has been with up and downs this past few months. Not that serious major problems but I've been having a problem with myself. You know , issues. But one thing that I've learned is that the only one who can help me is me and right now I'm trying my best at that. Somehow, things been pretty good this school year. It has been fun with my awesome classmates and most especially my best friends. I've become more weird BUT more open and closer with them. One more week and GOODBYE Juniors 2010-2011. Hello Seniors 2011-2012. I'm not planning on transferring school ( I just hope things will be normal again in Japan since my mother is working there). Huhu. It's pretty disturbing but I am keeping my hopes up. I don't want to believe that's the world is about to end because believing makes it more real. Things been though for everyone, I guess.

This Sunday will be our Family Day which is held almost every year. I'm pretty excited (We we so excited we so excited!~ hahahaha. It's FRIDAY!) because the theme was "SPORTS" and we'll be playing, I think. Yikes. I will be able to wear my 1st ever Volleyball Jersey for the 1st time of my life. Huhu *tears of joy* . Stories will follow afterwards.

A lot of things has changed. Cannot wait to share my life again online.

~~PS: MY CRUSH HAS ANOTHER CRUSH NOW HUHUHUHU LOL.~~